Call someone else please...
I was so apprehensive about starting to write. I mentioned in my first post that I am so unqualified to teach anyone anything about God. I didn't understand why I had this urge to write. I sing. That's my ministry. I'm not good with putting my thoughts together. But I just couldn't stop thinking about it. When I finally decided to give it a try, I thought I'd try to write once a week. I really don't have a lot to say. I can tell stories, but I had no idea how I would relate them to anything Biblical or how to form any sort of lesson/devotion out of them. I've never done anything like this. So my plan was to write once a week, and my measure of success would be that someone other than my mom reads it. I would study scripture, pray about what I should write, and take my time putting my thoughts together for my weekly post.
When God called Moses to go back to Egypt to lead the Israelites out, his response was exactly my response. Exodus 4:10 But Moses pleaded with the Lord "Oh Lord, I'm just not a good speaker. I never have been, and I'm not now, even after you have spoken to me. I'm clumsy with words."
I absolutely LOVE God's response here. Exodus 4:11-13 "Who makes mouths?" the Lord asked him. "Who makes people so they can speak, or not speak, hear or not hear, see or not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go, and do as I have told you. I will help you speak well and I will tell you what to say." But Moses again pleaded, "Lord, Please send someone else!"
My plead to God wasn't "send someone else" but rather "call me to sing, not write!" That's where I'm comfortable. God doesn't always call us where we're comfortable. He wants bigger and better for us. We can't have bigger and better when we stay inside the comfort zone. God's promise to Moses to help him speak well and tell him what to say has proven to be true for me too. I can't believe how God keeps giving me these things to write about, and that people are actually reading it! It solidifies for me that God doesn't call people because they have it all together and are fully equipped. It's just the opposite. He gives people what they need when they're willing to do what He calls them to do.
I wrote the first one and had a feeling of relief, like 'ok now I can start thinking about what to write about next week.' I got some good feedback and encouragement on Facebook (thank you all for that, you truly don't know what it meant to me.)
The next morning I heard a song on Christian radio and instantly my wheels started turning. I started thinking I should write about this song 'You Say.' I know the first time I heard it, it was exactly what I needed to be reminded of. That night I started thinking about my prayer life and how much faith I was lacking, and then I thought maybe I could write about that. The next morning I got up and could feel that my allergies were starting, as they never fail to pay me a visit every Spring and Fall. I thought "I should write about seasons." You get the picture.
Today has been the first time I've felt like God hasn't given me any ideas. I've thought about it all day, like "I'm on a 5 day streak here, Lord. Give me something to write about." I looked at the stats of my blog and was blown away to see that 559 people have read it. That's 558 more than just my mom! I even have a handful of subscribers. People who actually want to receive an email notification when I write something. How could that be? I have only shared it with a handful of people on Facebook. And then it hit me. I should write about exactly that. How I'm an amateur. How I am so beyond unqualified, yet somehow God is using me.
The next morning I heard a song on Christian radio and instantly my wheels started turning. I started thinking I should write about this song 'You Say.' I know the first time I heard it, it was exactly what I needed to be reminded of. That night I started thinking about my prayer life and how much faith I was lacking, and then I thought maybe I could write about that. The next morning I got up and could feel that my allergies were starting, as they never fail to pay me a visit every Spring and Fall. I thought "I should write about seasons." You get the picture.
Today has been the first time I've felt like God hasn't given me any ideas. I've thought about it all day, like "I'm on a 5 day streak here, Lord. Give me something to write about." I looked at the stats of my blog and was blown away to see that 559 people have read it. That's 558 more than just my mom! I even have a handful of subscribers. People who actually want to receive an email notification when I write something. How could that be? I have only shared it with a handful of people on Facebook. And then it hit me. I should write about exactly that. How I'm an amateur. How I am so beyond unqualified, yet somehow God is using me.
When God called Moses to go back to Egypt to lead the Israelites out, his response was exactly my response. Exodus 4:10 But Moses pleaded with the Lord "Oh Lord, I'm just not a good speaker. I never have been, and I'm not now, even after you have spoken to me. I'm clumsy with words."
I absolutely LOVE God's response here. Exodus 4:11-13 "Who makes mouths?" the Lord asked him. "Who makes people so they can speak, or not speak, hear or not hear, see or not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go, and do as I have told you. I will help you speak well and I will tell you what to say." But Moses again pleaded, "Lord, Please send someone else!"
My plead to God wasn't "send someone else" but rather "call me to sing, not write!" That's where I'm comfortable. God doesn't always call us where we're comfortable. He wants bigger and better for us. We can't have bigger and better when we stay inside the comfort zone. God's promise to Moses to help him speak well and tell him what to say has proven to be true for me too. I can't believe how God keeps giving me these things to write about, and that people are actually reading it! It solidifies for me that God doesn't call people because they have it all together and are fully equipped. It's just the opposite. He gives people what they need when they're willing to do what He calls them to do.
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